I finally signed the offer yesterday and mailed it to them, everything is going as planned and even better. Yesterday evening, I had the pleasure of going for dinner with a group of my girl friends. It's amazing how everyone knows everyone  in  some ways..It was a great night and but more interesting than just the dinner was the fact that we got to talk about some life issues...Its great to talk stuff over and see other people's point of view...And listen to other girl's experiences on how to deal with certain situations...I feel I am shedding..Or may be I am learning about people's interior rather than exterior..That is my next project..To find out what people are all about in a short period of time..I still think I am some how okay in it..Since I have a good sixth sense..But at the same time its not really logical..I think I should try to look at people's behavior logically...And then draw conclusion..Although I always try that but I always try to start fresh with people and I don't like to take any gruge over anyone..but as this friend of mine puts it, not everyone in your life has the same value..some value more and some less...this is exactly what Gina told me a week ago as well...Me, being the idealist, always try to value everyone the same..since being fair is my number one priority in life..but I guess when some people are not worth it you should not give your kindness to them as my other friend puts it..you should give your kindness to people who deserve it..although its very hard for me to do that..since by nature I just want to be kind to anyone and even if anyone did something unkind to me, I still try to forget it but I guess this is another part of growing up and a learning experience.

THERE YOU'LL BE - Faith Hill
I used to sing this song sooooooooo much:)and I still love it..not just the lyrics but also the ways Faith Hill sings it, is amazing.

 

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When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I’ll be glad cuz I was blessed to get To have you in my life
When I look back on these days
I’ll look and see your face You were right there for me
In my dreams I’ll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
 I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be there 
Well you showed me how it feels To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all The strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through
Oh I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
I want to thank you now for all the ways You were right there for me

Date:July 21,04
Time:8:50 am
mood:nagging and cursing at the waiting situation...everyone trying to calm me down
Time:8:52
phone rings...my mom answers..she is on the edge too..we got informed of a relative death before that...she answers...gives me the phone...I am suprized..but something in me says that its them..that finally they have decided...I walk with the phone..as if I am not in this world..detached..everyone follows me!!!my mom told them to stop and stand still..I show the victory sign to my dad..and they laugh and gave me the huge hug:)I could see the depth of his happiness..I know he loves me so dearly that my happiness makes him 100 times more...same with the rest of my family..the whole household is calm now...and life goes on...split second..every thing changed...but my lesson for that split second was that even for that you have to work hard and be smart..luck is important but more important than that is you believe in yourself and go after your dreams...never give up and again as my highschool slogan was and will be in my life..CARPE DIEM..love you all and thanks for praying for me:)I got all those positive energies.

To all my girls who are too scared to beilieve in themselves. Although its a great lyrics but I don't know how Hilary pulled it off at the age of 15. 



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Hilary Duff-Inner Strength
 
Gotta find your inner strength
If you can't then just throw life away
Gotta learn to rely on you
Beauty, strength, and wisdom, too
You're beautiful inside and out
Lead a great life without a doubt
Don't need a man to make things fair'Cuz more than likely he won't be there
Listen girl, gotta know it's true
In the end all you've got is you

Last night my family and I were at one of our friends house. The start up of this family friendship was because of me;) The daughter of the family and I used to be classmates in middle school. Their family is like my own now:)I love her parents the same way as I love my own. She got married last year and this time we got the chance to watch the wedding tapes:)Although she wasn't there last night but she and her better half were great in the film. I loved their love walk both in Iran and here. Actually their film and photos were faster developed and edited unlike here that took ages. I also got to talk to one of my dearest childhood friends some days ago, I couldn't beilieve it, it has been nearly a year since we talked, I guess he is always busy, the funny thing is when I was talking to him I realized that he is exactly in the same situation as I was last year, big confusion about what to do next!!;)although he has made his mind that he is not ready for life!!!so he is going to continue studying. I hope one of the universities he chooses is Canada. It was great talking to him since I wanted to know how his cousins, Ayeh and Iman are doing, they are twins and Sina and I with them used to go to English classes together:)I was classmate with Ayeh in fourth grade as well. But then they left Iran for Netherlands and I haven't seen them since. I remember Iman was very funny, he used to live in his mind;)in such that he wouldn't see even infront of him and it was probable that some times he might hit a wall or something;)he used to call red pen as rose pen in farsi and that has stick in my mind since we were 8 years old. They are both studying and doing fine as Sina puts it. I wish I can see them again and talk about those wonderfull times and laughters together. Lambada was the music of the day that time and we all loved it, now on Lina's wedding amazingly they had it too, so it totally reminded me of them and our great times together but as always I am so blessed with so many good friends that I can share my hopefully more good times with them:)